Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
so scared
yesterday I went home early kasi sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. masakit yung balakang ko and feeling ko super pagod ako. before i left the office tawag ako kay mahal and I told him na uuwi na ko kc im not feeling well nga and masakit ang balakang ko etc.
at home pagdating nya.. pinuntahan kagad nya ko sa bed and niyakap. sabi nya lang sakin.. "mahal wag ganun kasi natatakot ako eh.. lamu naman may phobia na ko sa ganun eh.. " and he just embraced me so tight.
well, i guess i scared the hell out of him talaga.. i saw his eyes and i can feel na talagang na-tensed ata sya kagabi. ako rin naman, natakot din ako sa pakiramdam ko lalo na 2 nights na ko may abnormal discharged. natatakot din talaga ako for may baby so i have to be extra careful.
i know from the very start ng pagbubuntis ko mas tensed sakin si mister. sabi nga nya - nagkaphobia na sya. muntik na kasi sila magkaron ng baby ni dyena nun but i don't know what happened hindi nabuo yung baby at nakunan sya. syempre natatakot din sya na maulit yung nangyari before. sya kasi yung tipo na mahilig sa bata and super duper gusto na nya maging daddy. kaya nga when he was barely new here in dubai and she told him na she's 2 months pregnant daw and si allan ang tatay..weird but i know how he felt that time. alam ko sobra sya na-excite na magkakababy na sya.. i don't know what happened din dun sa "baby" nila dapat kasi hindi naman sya nanganak.
oh well, sana lang healthy si baby lague. ginagawa namin ni allan lahat ng pag-aalaga sa para sa knya.
excited na kami makita ka kidlat! :) love you!
at home pagdating nya.. pinuntahan kagad nya ko sa bed and niyakap. sabi nya lang sakin.. "mahal wag ganun kasi natatakot ako eh.. lamu naman may phobia na ko sa ganun eh.. " and he just embraced me so tight.
well, i guess i scared the hell out of him talaga.. i saw his eyes and i can feel na talagang na-tensed ata sya kagabi. ako rin naman, natakot din ako sa pakiramdam ko lalo na 2 nights na ko may abnormal discharged. natatakot din talaga ako for may baby so i have to be extra careful.
i know from the very start ng pagbubuntis ko mas tensed sakin si mister. sabi nga nya - nagkaphobia na sya. muntik na kasi sila magkaron ng baby ni dyena nun but i don't know what happened hindi nabuo yung baby at nakunan sya. syempre natatakot din sya na maulit yung nangyari before. sya kasi yung tipo na mahilig sa bata and super duper gusto na nya maging daddy. kaya nga when he was barely new here in dubai and she told him na she's 2 months pregnant daw and si allan ang tatay..weird but i know how he felt that time. alam ko sobra sya na-excite na magkakababy na sya.. i don't know what happened din dun sa "baby" nila dapat kasi hindi naman sya nanganak.
oh well, sana lang healthy si baby lague. ginagawa namin ni allan lahat ng pag-aalaga sa para sa knya.
excited na kami makita ka kidlat! :) love you!
before and after my accident
Feb 17,2006
I was checking my stuff when my SSS ID caught my attention. I stared at my picture and as usual - natawa ako. How could I ever forget nung nagpagawa ako ng ID - basag pa yung mukha. Sabi pa nung kukuha ng picture "miss sure ka ba na papapicture ka na namamaga mukha mo?" sagot ko lang "kelngan ko po eh"
Actually, medyo pagaling na nga ako nung nagpunta ako sa SSS para magpa-ID - nadidilat ko na ang mata ko, hindi na masyadong malaki ang namamaga kong noo, hindi na rin masyadong namamaga ang nguso ko. Whenever i tried to look back natatawa lang ako na minsan naaksidente ako sa jeep dahil sa alak.
Check nyo ang pictures nung inuman namin.. maayos pa ang mukha ko jan. Nung umuwi ako naaksidente ako sa jeep.. pagpreno nya tumilapon ako sa harapan at mukha ko lang ang may tama. Yung asawa ko tinawanan lang ako sa kwento ko dahil parang imposible daw.. pero yun talaga nangyari.. nakaidlip kasi ako sa loob ng jeep eh. hhayyzz
So far, mejo nabalik naman ata ang dati kong mukha.. pero sa totoo lang feeling ko minsan tabingi na yung mukha ko ngayun at parang di na nabalik yung dati. hehhe
lesson learned: wag sumakay ng jeep from pasig to quiapo. heheh
I was checking my stuff when my SSS ID caught my attention. I stared at my picture and as usual - natawa ako. How could I ever forget nung nagpagawa ako ng ID - basag pa yung mukha. Sabi pa nung kukuha ng picture "miss sure ka ba na papapicture ka na namamaga mukha mo?" sagot ko lang "kelngan ko po eh"
Actually, medyo pagaling na nga ako nung nagpunta ako sa SSS para magpa-ID - nadidilat ko na ang mata ko, hindi na masyadong malaki ang namamaga kong noo, hindi na rin masyadong namamaga ang nguso ko. Whenever i tried to look back natatawa lang ako na minsan naaksidente ako sa jeep dahil sa alak.
Check nyo ang pictures nung inuman namin.. maayos pa ang mukha ko jan. Nung umuwi ako naaksidente ako sa jeep.. pagpreno nya tumilapon ako sa harapan at mukha ko lang ang may tama. Yung asawa ko tinawanan lang ako sa kwento ko dahil parang imposible daw.. pero yun talaga nangyari.. nakaidlip kasi ako sa loob ng jeep eh. hhayyzz
So far, mejo nabalik naman ata ang dati kong mukha.. pero sa totoo lang feeling ko minsan tabingi na yung mukha ko ngayun at parang di na nabalik yung dati. hehhe
lesson learned: wag sumakay ng jeep from pasig to quiapo. heheh
(pictures taken night before the accident : inuman sa bahay ni pusa)
(my SSS ID - after the accident..)
Monday, June 8, 2009
Make Each Day Your Masterpiece
The key to self-creation is in your willingness to do very tiny things - but to do them TODAY.
Self-creation is not an all-or-nothing game. Rather, it's a work in progress.
A little touch here and a small stroke there is what makes your day (and therefore, your life) great.
Today is a microcosm of your entire life. It is your whole life in miniature. It's like... You were "born" when you woke up and you will "die" when you go to sleep. Think of it that way, so that you could live your whole life in a day.
Most of us, however, don't want it to be this way. If we were asked whether today could be used as a model to judge our entire life by, we would probably shriek, "Oh, no! It wasn't one of my better days. Give me a year or two and I'll live a day, I'm certain of it, that you can use to represent my life."
We want our lives to accumulate. To add up to something. We think of life as being strung together like a long smoky train, so that we can add new freight cars when we're feeling that the time is right for it.
MAKE EACH DAY YOUR MASTERPIECE!
Self-creation is not an all-or-nothing game. Rather, it's a work in progress.
A little touch here and a small stroke there is what makes your day (and therefore, your life) great.
Today is a microcosm of your entire life. It is your whole life in miniature. It's like... You were "born" when you woke up and you will "die" when you go to sleep. Think of it that way, so that you could live your whole life in a day.
Most of us, however, don't want it to be this way. If we were asked whether today could be used as a model to judge our entire life by, we would probably shriek, "Oh, no! It wasn't one of my better days. Give me a year or two and I'll live a day, I'm certain of it, that you can use to represent my life."
We want our lives to accumulate. To add up to something. We think of life as being strung together like a long smoky train, so that we can add new freight cars when we're feeling that the time is right for it.
MAKE EACH DAY YOUR MASTERPIECE!
- Dickie Aguado
Sunday, June 7, 2009
sunday
first day of the week.. kakatamad talaga pumasok. sana lague na lang thursday para no work the next day.
ilan na bang sick leave ko?? i have one each month and half days / lates in between.
so tamad na talaga as in! :(
ilan na bang sick leave ko?? i have one each month and half days / lates in between.
so tamad na talaga as in! :(
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
no bonus. no increment.patay!
ano daw???
don't expect to receive bonus this year. anlungkot naman nun if ever nga na totoo. sobrang big help kasi ng 'bonus' lalo na for the baby. pambawas din yun ng sangkatutak na expenses... wwahh.. pero di pa naman sure. aside sa bonus, don't expect for increment din. arrggh.. we don't think this company is facing financial crisis. mukhang nakikiuso lang ata sila sa 'world crisis'.
"the company is doing good" - sa managers na nanggaling yan.. sobrang stable. ang daming cheke na pumapasok everyday.. ang daming collection.. kelan lang nagpakain sila samin sa atlantis, namigay ng libreng ticket sa cirque de soleil and just 2 weeks ago we had our bonggang annual dinner sa westin hotel - and after those super magastos na sunod-sunod na events nag-announce ng cost-cutting?? i don't see any problem with that pero wag naman yung walang 'bonus' at mas lalong walang 'increment'.
hhayy.. i hope im filthy rich para hindi na masakit sa ulo pag nakakarinig ng mga ganyang bad news. sana yung cheque na 230,000 dirhams and 186,000 dirhams na nareceived ko from client the other day sakin napunta. hahha or kahit porsyento man lang sa bawat cheque na nakokolekta ko... hhmmppp
don't expect to receive bonus this year. anlungkot naman nun if ever nga na totoo. sobrang big help kasi ng 'bonus' lalo na for the baby. pambawas din yun ng sangkatutak na expenses... wwahh.. pero di pa naman sure. aside sa bonus, don't expect for increment din. arrggh.. we don't think this company is facing financial crisis. mukhang nakikiuso lang ata sila sa 'world crisis'.
"the company is doing good" - sa managers na nanggaling yan.. sobrang stable. ang daming cheke na pumapasok everyday.. ang daming collection.. kelan lang nagpakain sila samin sa atlantis, namigay ng libreng ticket sa cirque de soleil and just 2 weeks ago we had our bonggang annual dinner sa westin hotel - and after those super magastos na sunod-sunod na events nag-announce ng cost-cutting?? i don't see any problem with that pero wag naman yung walang 'bonus' at mas lalong walang 'increment'.
hhayy.. i hope im filthy rich para hindi na masakit sa ulo pag nakakarinig ng mga ganyang bad news. sana yung cheque na 230,000 dirhams and 186,000 dirhams na nareceived ko from client the other day sakin napunta. hahha or kahit porsyento man lang sa bawat cheque na nakokolekta ko... hhmmppp
on the lighter side.. thankful pa rin ako na hindi nagtatanggalan sa kumpanyang pinapasukan ko. i've got work at may narereceive ako na salary every month. i've got so many reasons pa rin to be thankful..
lets hope for the best - at un na lang ang nasabi ng officemate ko. hehhe :)
I'm a Christian
I'm A Christian
by
May Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on..
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
by
May Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on..
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
kwentuhan..kulitan!
9:45 AM allan: mahal..
9:51 AM me: mahal
:)
10:01 AM allan: may naisip pa ako isang pangalan ni baby..
10:03 AM me: ano?
allan: ma..
10:04 AM me: po?
allan: "Les Paul"
:D
me: san mu nakuha yan
10:05 AM allan: pangalan yan ng gitara..
model ng gitara..
10:06 AM me: dyeno na lang
allan: nakakapikon ka na ah!
OK KIDLAT NA! HINDI NA AKO MAGIISIP NG ALTERNATE PA!
10:07 AM me: http://www.symbianize.com/showthread.php?p=1013254
10:08 AM allen floralde ah
allan: hehehehe..
nangangalap ako ng boto sana jan.. para sa artwork ko sa saatchi..
hehehe..
10:09 AM jan ung pinost ko ung picture mo..
and sinabi ko syo na nagkakaroon minsan ng mga photography competition.. kya lang.. mahina.. ang liliit pla ng papremyo..
10:10 AM http://www.symbianize.com/showthread.php?t=96181&page=5
10:11 AM me: eh bat allen nilagay mu name?
allan: alam mo nmn ayaw ko ng name ko eh..
ala lang.. naisip ko lng.. ayaw ko na kasi ng atari..
me: yun n lang
allen
:)
aljen
allan: allen? pangalan ng anak natin??!!! ayaw!! pangalan ko na un sa jollibee eh!
10:12 AM mahal nmn eh!
aljen? ang jologs nmn nun?! lumang style na un.. ung pinagsasama ung pangalan..
10:13 AM basta KIDLAT..
tapos..
me: thank you po mam kisses.. ala ba kiss?? i mean kisses chocolate.. hehehe.. salamat po!!
kumakarir p to eh
allan: hahahaha
eto nmn.. nambobola lang para may maging friends at may bumoto..
hehehe.. :D
10:14 AM me: magiisip ako mamaya ng pangalan
allan: hay..
mahal nmn.. usapan natin ikaw sa babae eh
10:15 AM at ako sa lalake..
me: sus
baka maganda pa maisip ko kc
10:16 AM allan: ayus ah! parang sinabi mong d magaganda naiisip ko ah!
10:18 AM http://www.symbianize.com/showpost.php?p=1033532&postcount=394
10:24 AM me: Reid
10:25 AM allan: reid?? ayaw! parang bisya ng red..
10:26 AM ganyan si saira dati.. kuya allan bili mo ko nun ung kulay reid..
pang yabis tlga mga naiisip nito..
10:28 AM me: ano ba pangalan nung import nung alaska dati
gusto ko name nun eh
10:30 AM allan: pucha! magaaway tayo nito!
sean chambers?!
10:31 AM me: SEAN
gusto ko yun!!!
10:32 AM august rush
???
kaya lang october sya eh
allan: ewan!!!
me: so october rush
allan: magseryoso ka nmn
10:43 AM me: seryoso ako
10:45 AM allan: seryoso ka nun?? october rush! para nmn to sira.. maayos na nga ung kidlat eh.. disente..
10:47 AM me: bat ayaw mu ng atari
10:50 AM allan: ayaw ko nun..
nagsawa na ako..
10:53 AM me: pwede my
gusto mu ba
2 names
starts with A and j?
adriel?
11:07 AM allan: hay..
ayaw mo ba ng kidlat?
11:12 AM me: ayaw
11:13 AM allan: ganda kaya..
11:14 AM me: bagwis gusto mo?
allan: bagwis?!
baka nasa isip mo pa pati balawis?
11:18 AM me: di mo ba alaw ang meang ng bagwis
11:20 AM allan: kahit na kung ano pa man ang meaning nun.. ang panget nmn pakinggan.. parang kalapati..
11:22 AM me: eh yung kidlat?
allan: kidlat.. ang angas!
11:23 AM me: cge n nga
bala ka
11:24 AM allan: hehehe.. ayaw mo les paul??
11:30 AM me: pronounce yan as le' paul diba?
11:31 AM ok lang diin
11:33 AM allan: ay basta.. kidlat pa rin..
9:51 AM me: mahal
:)
10:01 AM allan: may naisip pa ako isang pangalan ni baby..
10:03 AM me: ano?
allan: ma..
10:04 AM me: po?
allan: "Les Paul"
:D
me: san mu nakuha yan
10:05 AM allan: pangalan yan ng gitara..
model ng gitara..
10:06 AM me: dyeno na lang
allan: nakakapikon ka na ah!
OK KIDLAT NA! HINDI NA AKO MAGIISIP NG ALTERNATE PA!
10:07 AM me: http://www.symbianize.com/showthread.php?p=1013254
10:08 AM allen floralde ah
allan: hehehehe..
nangangalap ako ng boto sana jan.. para sa artwork ko sa saatchi..
hehehe..
10:09 AM jan ung pinost ko ung picture mo..
and sinabi ko syo na nagkakaroon minsan ng mga photography competition.. kya lang.. mahina.. ang liliit pla ng papremyo..
10:10 AM http://www.symbianize.com/showthread.php?t=96181&page=5
10:11 AM me: eh bat allen nilagay mu name?
allan: alam mo nmn ayaw ko ng name ko eh..
ala lang.. naisip ko lng.. ayaw ko na kasi ng atari..
me: yun n lang
allen
:)
aljen
allan: allen? pangalan ng anak natin??!!! ayaw!! pangalan ko na un sa jollibee eh!
10:12 AM mahal nmn eh!
aljen? ang jologs nmn nun?! lumang style na un.. ung pinagsasama ung pangalan..
10:13 AM basta KIDLAT..
tapos..
me: thank you po mam kisses.. ala ba kiss?? i mean kisses chocolate.. hehehe.. salamat po!!
kumakarir p to eh
allan: hahahaha
eto nmn.. nambobola lang para may maging friends at may bumoto..
hehehe.. :D
10:14 AM me: magiisip ako mamaya ng pangalan
allan: hay..
mahal nmn.. usapan natin ikaw sa babae eh
10:15 AM at ako sa lalake..
me: sus
baka maganda pa maisip ko kc
10:16 AM allan: ayus ah! parang sinabi mong d magaganda naiisip ko ah!
10:18 AM http://www.symbianize.com/showpost.php?p=1033532&postcount=394
10:24 AM me: Reid
10:25 AM allan: reid?? ayaw! parang bisya ng red..
10:26 AM ganyan si saira dati.. kuya allan bili mo ko nun ung kulay reid..
pang yabis tlga mga naiisip nito..
10:28 AM me: ano ba pangalan nung import nung alaska dati
gusto ko name nun eh
10:30 AM allan: pucha! magaaway tayo nito!
sean chambers?!
10:31 AM me: SEAN
gusto ko yun!!!
10:32 AM august rush
???
kaya lang october sya eh
allan: ewan!!!
me: so october rush
allan: magseryoso ka nmn
10:43 AM me: seryoso ako
10:45 AM allan: seryoso ka nun?? october rush! para nmn to sira.. maayos na nga ung kidlat eh.. disente..
10:47 AM me: bat ayaw mu ng atari
10:50 AM allan: ayaw ko nun..
nagsawa na ako..
10:53 AM me: pwede my
gusto mu ba
2 names
starts with A and j?
adriel?
11:07 AM allan: hay..
ayaw mo ba ng kidlat?
11:12 AM me: ayaw
11:13 AM allan: ganda kaya..
11:14 AM me: bagwis gusto mo?
allan: bagwis?!
baka nasa isip mo pa pati balawis?
11:18 AM me: di mo ba alaw ang meang ng bagwis
11:20 AM allan: kahit na kung ano pa man ang meaning nun.. ang panget nmn pakinggan.. parang kalapati..
11:22 AM me: eh yung kidlat?
allan: kidlat.. ang angas!
11:23 AM me: cge n nga
bala ka
11:24 AM allan: hehehe.. ayaw mo les paul??
11:30 AM me: pronounce yan as le' paul diba?
11:31 AM ok lang diin
11:33 AM allan: ay basta.. kidlat pa rin..
happy birthday to me!!!
today I turned 26.. matanda na rin pala ako pero sa totoo lang di ko nararamdaman na tumatanda ako. 4 more years nasa line of three na ang edad ko pero wala naman sa edad yan diba?? parang kelan lang naglalaro lang ako ng chinese garter, 10/20 at remborak.. ang bilis ng panahon.
marami na rin ang nangyari sa buhay ko.. marami na rin akong napagdaaanan.. ive been through heaven and hell and everything in between. kung ilang beses ako umiyak sa loob ng 26 years hindi ko alam.. basta ang alam ko ilang beses din akong nasugatan at nadapa pero natutunan ko din namang tumayo, maglakad at magtiwala kay God.
siguro memorable lang sakin ang pagpalit ko ng edad ngayun.. naappreciate ko ata na im a year older. after my bday last year sobra kasing daming nangyari.. dito ko naranasan ma-down, ma-stress, malungkot ng sobra, mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili, mainsecure, mapraning, magalit.. ang daming negative emotion. akala ko pagdating ng araw na to.. wala pa ring magbabago. akala ko hindi pa rin ako makakalet-go at makakamove on.
pero eto ako... masayang nagising sa umaga.. binati ng taong pinakakamahal ko.. may malikot na baby sa tyan ko habang isinusulat ko to. umaandar ang oras.. at matatapos ang bday ko na masaya ako..
..kahit na walang cake, walang spag or pansit, walang letson, walang beer, walang money..
nauna na kasing ibinigay ni papa God ang gift nya sakin. sobrang advance..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
ps. salamat mister at salamat sa lahat ng nakaalala at bumati. tumatanggap din ako ng gift! *wink
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