same day last year

these were her emails same day last year. what if.. she was really pregnant nung mga panahon na to? nanganak na sya for sure.. malaki na siguro yung baby... baka siguro kung tunay nga buntis sya nito.. baka hindi na kami ngayun.. baka sila na ulit.

pag binabasa ko yung emails nya na ganito.. napapangiti ako.. at natutuwa..dahil isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito - nakasurvive kami sa test.

i wanna post this.. so just in case she came across to this entry magbalik sa knya mga ginawa nya.. it seems kc nagkaron sya ng sakit na amnesia. :) i'm not creating stories or nambabaliktad ng kwento like what she was telling everyone..

From: g**** g****
Subject: for you allan
To:
Date: Friday, 11 April, 2008, 11:24 AM

HI!

i miss u heaven.i really do.but everyday im starting to learn and accept things as they are.i miss you cuz i still love you.and im not the kind of person to pretend and tell u ive already forgotten you..u knowme.

evrday, it'sreally ahrd..evrytym may makita kong magjowa na makulit naalala kita..tayo..last nyt at lrt may katabi ko na magjowang uber kulit..and i remember you..see? as ive toldyou, good memories remain.ive laready forgiven you long ago..i dont know but sad and bad memories seldomly hit me now, mas naalala ko yung masya.and it makes me smile but miss you more, but i guess it'snormal.

i dont know realy how to reach you cuz it's seems to me na she holds all ur accts..emails/frenster/multiply..and there are things that shud be said between you and me lang.im not here to ruin your relationship,im here kasi nangangamusta lang.

i was surprised one day to realize that ndi na ikaw ang may hawak ng multiply acct mo,i dont know but madali sakin to recognize tlaga na ndi ikaw ung sumasagot sa emailko..and everytime she pretends to be you in all emails whatsoever..binabara ko sya..nabibisto ko sya..i hve no intensions of manggulo..all my letters are jjust plain pangangamusta..nothing pushy,nothing malaswa, nothing mapanira..it'sjust to lame para magpretned syang ikaw..i have no intensions of getting between you guys.i just dont get it why she have to call me and pretend to be you.that'stoo much,i deserve respect from her end. i dont accept her sorry kasi it'stoo plastic..though she said it's sincere..alamko kung san ko ilalgay ang sarili ko..kaya dapat alamdin nya ang posisyon nya sa buhay ko..i dont need her sorry.its better for her na tumahimik na lang sya.

well, so much for that, just tell her na she shud stop doing things like that.kasi nagmumukha syang stupid tlga.it's tiring na po allan.nakakapagod na sya.nkita mo naman, yung usapan nmin sa multiply, i wont create the letter kung di nya ko inupisahan ng 4miskols nya.i \just dont get it...magkasama na kayo, bkit ako pa yung ginugulo nya?she shud be contented na magkasam\a na kayo jan.

im down ad\nd problematic,may mas imporatnateng bagay po na dapt ko ayusin.misskita.and thanks sa alaalang iniwan mo.si jane pa lang ang nakakaalam ng sitwast\yon ko..at kayo.and i have no intensions na ipagkalat pato.not now.so kip ur wife's mouth shut.tell her to leave mealone.after u settled the creditcard, u wont be hearing anything again fromme.iwana cut the connection.napapagod na ko sa panggugulo sakin ng asawa mo.wagmo ispin ang responsibilidad mo sakin.i have my family to support me..ur baby is in good hands..naiiyak lang ako misan,sobrang telenovela ang buhay ko.mahal pa din kita,pero tlgang ganun ang buhay.wag mo mamisinterpret na galit ako sa letter, im too relaxed and mahinahon.
asfor my job,maayos at masya ako.

masya ko na msaya ka jan,sincerely..i wish you the best.imiss you but i dont expect na mmamiss modin ako.masya na kong ok ka jan.mahaba pa ang buhay natin ven..alam ko mawalan man us ng communication, darating ang araw magkikita tayo.maybe pag lolo at lola na tayo.pag namiss mo ko tingin ka na lang sa langit..hehehe.

ingats.dito ka an lang magreply.sana nmnndi mo ipaalam ang password ng email ko na to sa kanya. *-*.. i trust you na itong emails na to ay discreetlang.wla nmn akong masamang gagawin. ito lang yung best way na naiisip ko paramakausap kaw/o her interfering.allan,napapgod na ko sa asawa mo.as ivesaid,di ko sisirain kung anung meron kayo..mamumuhay akong magisa at malayo.

ingats.regards.email me back.kwentuhan mo ko.

pS
nabasa mo naba yung comment ko sa post mo na river maya??

email me back.

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From:
Subject: clearing things
To:
Date: Friday, 11 April, 2008, 5:03 PM

thanks for the calls..but u dont need to be responsinble for this.im positive but still ahvent gone to OB..maybe ur just checkng if im bluffing..but im not..it'potive..maybe magtwo months na to..u dont ahve to send money or any suport cuz i wont accept it..imficne..and willalways be..wag na nating paguluhin pa ang buhay ko..tma na ang natapos na tayo..kung anu man ang naiwan mo..salamt ng sobra..but ur out of my life now.and im alone..it's ok.

what i want no is to be peaceful..tma na ang twag ng asawa mo at ang anik anik na ginagawa nya sa blogs ng multiply.wag na nya kamo ko try saktn ng paulit ult..dahil baka magising sya isang araw ng sya ang umiiyak.tell her to leave me alone.

i just informed you cuz it'sur ryt to know, but it doesnt mean i u'll still be a part of everything.just be good there and maybe one day if our paths crossed again, dun na alng..ganun na lang..hope and wish ko maging ok na to unlike the first one we had..i repaet i dont need any support.