i dunno what happened with my usb.. seems like i mistakenly deleted some files. nawala talaga yung folder na madalas kong binubuksan before. i decided to have a look again and read all the saved word documents in there..kaya lang to my surprise wala na sya dun. those were pieces of evidence na initago ko ng ilang buwan. when i found out that the files are not there anymore nanlumo ako.. nanghinayang ako.. nagtanong ako bat nawawala yung mga pinakaiingatan ko?
sayang naman.. andun ang mga sweet emails nila.. andun ang mga salitang pumatay sakin ng ilang ulit..
after a while narealized ko..why im keeping those emails? why do i have to read it all over again? it is something that i need to let go for it's the reason behind my misery. why do i need to look back when i am so happy with my life.. to check if i still feel the pain? or to see if i already moved on? or for me to get mad again dahil all this time feeling ko ako ang inagrabyado??
after having these random thoughts.. naisip ko.. God has reason why those unwanted files are already deleted.
for me not to look back.
for me to continue walking forward.
napangiti ako.. i know i can look back.. i can reminisce what happened in the past without feeling the pain anymore...
tuloy pa rin ang buhay. masaya ang buhay. makulay ang buhay.
ang nakaraan ay parte ng ngayun ko at bukas.
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