goodbye jay-n

I don't want to question anymore why you have to end your life that way. I just want to think and believe that you are now at peace. Nanghihinayang pa rin ako sa pagkawala mo.. you are so young.. and you have so many dreams to make. Marami pa sana Jay.. marami pa sana tayong pagsasamahan. I remembered talking to you last year before Christmas... nag-usap tayo and you told me things will be better. I wish you were more open with your feelings.. sana mas nabantayan pa kita. Nakikinig ka naman sakin diba? I know you suffered with family problems and you always wanted to escape and get away.. but I never thought it will end this way. Partly yes, I saw it coming... sana lang naagapan pa. But It was you, yourself who made the desicion to end end your life..just like that.

I can't think of anything to say now. I know God is a BIG GOD with a BIG Heart and he'll understand what you have been through.. and forgive you with what you have done. Sana Jay kasama ka na ni GOd... watching us up there.

You will always be with me.. you will always be with my prayers. Salamat sa pakikinig mo rin sakin before sa mga walng kwentang kwento at payo ko.. thank you for treating me as your ate. Super lungkot lang kasi di ako makauwi ngayun para makita pa kita for the last time.

Mahal ka namin.. and I hope I showed you somehow that I treasure you so much. Hndi ka namin makakalimutan.

Rest in peace Jay.