Kuya na si Kidlat

after having thoughts why im so lazy these past days and why i still don't have my monthly period. Now, im over na with "delay lang siguro ako". finally, it's confirmed - im pregnant! Imagine? napatanong ako ng HOW COME? hahah can't believe talaga im having my second baby na. di pa nga ko nakakarecover sa trauma ng panganganak and to think kidlat is only 1 yr and 2 months old. And one thing is... gumawa lang kami ng milagro ng mga 2 times or 3 times after my period - nakajackpot pa!

Paano na ang budget? yun ang una kong natanong? we need to buy 2 milks na..patay! pero ayos lang..siguro eto ang christmas gift ni papa God samin ni Allan.. sana lang after nito isabay na rin Nya ang panalo ko sa Lotto para walang problema sa budget.

hay naku.. kaya eto.. bawal na magpuyat, bawal na magsoftdrinks, uminom ng kape at mag-beer. 1 taon pa lang ako payat tataba na nman ako. baby pa si kidlat kawawa naman magkakaron na ng kapatid.

sana this time - MAYUMI naman. at pagkatapos ayoko na!

forgiveness quotes

“Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.”

“To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.”


“You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well.”

Lewis B. Smedes quotes

scary

allan colapsed on his way sa work.
he can't remember anything basta paggising nya nasa ER na sya
ng hospital.
oh my.. mild stroke ba yun?
highblood?
hindi nman mataas ang BP nya sabi ng doctor.
he was advised to undergo several tests pra
malaman kung anong reason bakit sya nawalan ng malay.

Papa God, pls bantayan nyo po si Allan. I hope
wala syang sakit :(

the TRUTH makes everything else seem a lie..

- happy valentines day

super cute KIDLAT

kanino ba nagmana to???

quote for the day

“The past is never there when you try to go back. It exists, but only in memory. To pretend otherwise is to invite a mess.”

- Chris Cobbs

hintay

isang araw ng pagsilip
isang yugto ng pagmulat
ipikit man ng pilit
salat pa rin ang sugat...
saan ka patungo?
hinihingal...tumatakbo...
pilitin ma'ng huminto
ngunit paa'y 'di magkasundo
sa lamig ng hangin
sa ilalim ng buwan at bituin
magtatanong ng pilit
hahabulin ka ng matulin
sandali lang...
saan ka patungo?
hintay...sasama ako

naghahanap ng tamang mood para dugtungan..

Check out music from Antimano

BEAUTIFUL BURNS by antimano

Song Lyrics

Lyrics:

I leave myself alone with you tonight
and your fire catches me alight
From the distance you pull me in
I'm revolving, I'm a helpless satellite

Let me catch my breath for a moment so I can whisper
Don't let me go until you kiss me now

You keep me coming back for more
for those beautiful burns, those beautiful burns
You leave me here, i come undone
with these beautiful burns, these beautiful burns

I am bleeding with every word you said to me
I am waiting for the flames to set me free

Let me hold your hand, fingers intertwined, let me whisper
Don't let me go, hold me tighter now

You keep me coming back for more
for those beautiful burns, those beautiful burns
You leave me here, i come undone
with these beautiful burns, these beautiful burns...yeah.

Let me kiss you one more time in the rain as you whisper
Don't let me go, just keep on burning
Just keep on burning, just keep on... burning.

You keep me coming back for more
for those beautiful burns, those beautiful burns
You leave me here, i come undonewith these beautiful burns,

these beautiful burns...yeah.

ANTIMANO

i so heart ANTIMANO! woohhoo! <3>

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=790858404#!/antimanomusic

and check out their original compositions! you will surely love it!

kampay!

so small world

Kung minsan di ko mapigilang magtanong.. “paglalaruan ba ko ng tadhana?” o sadyang “sinasadya ng kapalaran ang mga nangyayari?”

Sobrang liit ng mundo. Umiiwas ka pero napupunta ka sa lugar na iniiwasan mo. Lumalayo ka pero may mga nakakasalamuha ka na malapit sa iniiwasan mo.

Ba’t ba ganun?

Now, I’m here kung saan siya before.

Ang labo,

Ang labo minsan ng buhay.

“We’re all looking for answers—in life, in everything. Sometimes, the answers we’re looking for had been hiding just below the surface. Other times, we find answers when we didn’t even realize we were asking the question. Sometimes, the answers can catch us completely by surprise. And sometimes, even when we find the answer we’ve been looking for, we’re still left with a whole hell of a lot of questions.”

—	Grey’s Anatomy

love the way he looks at me!

my dear blogspot

My dearest blogspot,

You are very special to me. Whenever I have a chance binabasa kita ng buong buo at ng paulit ulit. There are times na malulungkot ako sa mga nababasa ko.. but most of the time naman napapangiti ako. Dito ko kasi binubuhos lahat ng emotions ko..yung happiness at kalungkutan , insecurities at mga bagay na ipinagmamalaki ko.

If you have just notice matagal din akong hindi nakapagsulat. After my last post on February this year pinili ko na hindi n lang magsulat at huwag ka na munang dalawin.I chose not to put into words kung ano man ang nararamdaman ko that time. Figuratively I was dead on those months. Yes.. I died the second time. Alam mo na siguro ang mga pinagdaanan ko nung una akong nabaliw sa buhay.

But now that I’m over it..kaya ko na ulit magsulat. Kaya na ulit kitang balikan at basahin. I am no longer in deep pain. Nakaraos n ko. Nakaraos na kami.

It’s good to have u my dear blogspot. You are my shock absorber, my friend, my listener, my diary.

jen

happitots!

masaya ang buhay.. masaya mabuhay!

kahit na anong problema.. bagyo kung anu pa man.. smile pa rin.

Life must go on.. anjan naman si God.. =)

Go lng ng go.. Fight lang ng fight.

Hindi dapat ako nalulungkot at nagpapapekto sa mga simpleng bagay lang..

I should not make my life complicated.

at di ko dapat sinisisi sa internet ang kung anu mang inis at bad trip ko sa buhay.

happitots na lang palague.. :)

*parehong pakiramdam noong

sunday, july 26, 2009

is working..

after 7 months of being a plain housewife and mum.. i finally got a job! yes, and I started working last week.

the sad part is.. namimiss ko talaga si kidlat :( so sad to see him na humahabol sakin every morning when I have to leave for work.

buti na lang anjan si inday to look after my prince.

“and when we touch we’re not really touching. if our atoms did not repel one another we’d pass through each other like galaxies, unscathed.”

YES!

may net na!!!!

thank u my dearest hubby!

lubshu!

1 year na sya!

parang kelan lang.. isang taon na ang kidlat ko! :)

he's so cute.. he can dance now. nananapak na rin sya. super kulit and super bibo!

super love namin sya ng papa allan nya.

i love you my baby kidlat! mwuah!

mishu my blogspot!

malapit na kami magkaron ng internet connection.. :)

konti na lang at mapaglalaanan na kita ng panahon!

yipee!

love love!

love this feeling.. may asawa ako na super bait, super mag-alaga, super magmahal, at super pogi. may baby ako na super cute.. ang saya.. masaya gumising sa madaling araw dahil sa ingay ni kidlat.. masaya mag-asikaso sa umaga pag papasok na si mister.. masaya mag-alaga kay kidlat the whole day.. masaya mag-antay sa pag-uwi ni mister.. masaya matulog ng kayakap ang asawa at anak ko.

kumpleto na ang kasiyahan namin.

thank you Papa God. =)

so small cyberworld

nakakatuwa lang.. ilang beses ko na sya nakita sa multiply ko.. multiply is suggesting users that I may know.. hehhe and she's on top of the list.

maliit talaga ang mundo..what more ang cyberworld?

believe it or not.. allan went to their office to meet someone from the sales team.. and on the other hand pumunta din sila sa office nila allan. diba ang liit lang ng mundo???

i'm back!

yes i'm back!

im super happy to be with my kidlat and mahal. im enjoying every second with my baby kidlat
kahit na mapuyat at kahit na kakapagod. wala nang mas sasaya pa sa pagiging isang ina. meron pa kong super loving na hubby - kumpleto na kami. =)

thank you Lord sa lahat lahat..

paalam dubai

Paalam Dubai. Parang kelan lang halos illipad ko ang katawan ko makaalis lang ng Pinas at makarating lang ng Dubai. Ngayon, dalawang tulog na lang at babalik na ko sa Pinas for good. Hindi naging madali sakin ang desisyon nato.. pero sa tuwing maiisip ko si Kidlat sinasabi ko sa sarili ko – tama ang desisyon ko.

Ang dami ko sanang gustong isulat.. ang dami ko gustong ikwento.. pero parang masyado akong lutang ngayun. I don’t know how to express my feelings at this point. Hindi kasi naging mailap ang sakin ang maayos na kapalaran sa Dubai.. mabilis ako nakahanap ng maayos na work, di ko naranasan magexit, di ko naranasan maghanap ng part-time job.. sakto lang.. sapat lang – ganun ako. Pero may mga ilang wrong move ako na ginawa kaya naging rocky-road ang buhay disyerto ko. Ok lang din.. nakayanan ko naman kahit na super lubak na ng pinagdaanan ko. Salamat at may Diyos.

Love.. in theory

NOTHING STRIVES INSIDE A BROKEN HEART. When the heart gets broken, it turns into a void, a black hole in your chest sucking everything in and eventually spitting it all out. It’s like filling a cracking glass of water. No matter how you try to fill it, water will just keep leaking out. At the end of the day, you’re still empty and hollow and thirsty for something that you think would satiate the need for happiness.

Emptiness compels people to immediately start the search for such things. They could be anything. And when they do find them, they instantly start stuffing themselves, forcing everything in, even those that their hearts don’t really need. Empty people are impatient people. They are so distracted by the pain. They can’t wait to get rid of it. Their minds are stuck on thinking how to purge the heart of such torment, conveniently forgetting the fact that anything kept inside a heart should not be forced—like love. You have to own the right heart to nurture such sublime entity. I can’t imagine offering my heart to someone, all torn and hideous. Can you?

When a heart gets broken, repairs should be made first. Bleeders should be cauterized. Patches should be placed to cover the holes. Cuts should be stitched closed. And then one should let it heal. The healing part takes time but it varies among people because every heart is unique and wounds vary in severity depending on the degree of damage, depth, and hurts one had taken hold. And there are a gazillion ways to break a heart but ironically, only a few to fix it (open heart surgeries excluded).

The healing process is very tricky. Let’s take broken relationships, for example. When one says he had already moved on, there’s a great probability that it’s actually the opposite. The moment one thinks that his feet stands on the grounds of acceptance, that is when he usually finds himself chewing on the first seeds of grief—denial.

The damaged heart deals with a lot of questions, focusing mainly on the experience of pain. Some say the pain doesn’t really go away. You just learn how to live with it eventually. But a healing heart juggles more complex questions. Fear, doubt, frustrations, and phantom hurts swarm the heart forcing it to shut down—a coping mechanism. The heart is strong but it is also as fragile as it is vital.

When can one say his heart is completely healed? There are no infallible ways to know for sure just like discerning the exact point in time when a heart starts to love. In the end it’s still a risk, a gamble. But with a heart intact, filled with the right things, and a love true and inspiring, it’s definitely a risk worth taking.

http://roneilberania.blogspot.com/2009/12/lovein-theory.html

* thank you for allowing me to re-post this wonderful entry.

malapit na..

konti na lang.. one more week and i'll be home soon. can't wait.. :)

can't smile without him <3

happy 2010!

start the year right.. give everyone a sweet and big smile.. cheers!

happy new year!

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“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce”