meet our baby : KIDLAT or MAYUMI

6 more months to go at lalabas na ang first baby namin. We're really excited to finally see and touch our baby. Next month malalaman na namin kung girl or boy. I hope girl cause I'm not really in favor of the name KIDLAT if ever boy nga.. pero ang instinct ko babae talaga to kaya MAYUMI ang name nito. Sa hindi ko malamang dahilan gustong ipangalan ng asawa ko ang KIDLAT sa magiging anak namin.. astig daw. ayoko talaga.. di naman yun pangalang pangtao diba? Help me.. let him know di maganda ang kidlat.

we're so happy to see our baby moving so fast. yung OB ko tuwang tuwa din kasi ang likot! hhayyzz can't wait.. :)

hubby's 1st exhibit

March 12,2009. It was the opening day for an art exhibit titled "silent conversation" here in Dubai. Sobrang happy ni mister! Looking at him.. sobrang saya ko na rin as his wife. Sobrang proud ako sa lahat ng mga ginagawa nya.

i love you mahal.. like what i told you.. in or out ka man sa mga exhibit or competition ako pa rin ang number 1 fan mo. i will always believe in your talent.. i have nothing to do with whatever you are achieving right now.. wala akong kinalaman dun..it's all because of you. you're working so hard para lalo ka pang gumaling.

love na love ka namin ni baby.. and i will always be your proud wife! mwuah! :)

Falling in love

I remembered reading this piece in one of my speech class during college. It was Claire who gave me a copy of this. :)

FALLING IN LOVE
from the book, Letters To My Son, by Kent Norburn

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery when it comes.
It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze the mystery and look for reasons and causes but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself as a gift that comes and goes its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfavorable gift cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes hopefully at least once in your life, the gift of love will come to you in full flower and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.
When this happens to young people they too often try to grasp love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to restrain the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their love to change thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.
You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didnt choose to rest in the other person’s heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you dont love her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift that you cant return. Dont take advantage, dont cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning you will know in time.

Remember that you dont choose love, love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead becomes someone who seeks love. They forgot that the secret of love is that it is a gift and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own reasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cant bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

If you keep your heart open, love will come again.

dec 23, 2008 "i do.. the second time around (our church wedding)

I do.." the second time around.

I remember when we had our civil (secret) wedding.. wala kaming bisita, no preparation, we only asked Ninang Lorna to be our ninang kasi wala kaming witness talaga. We were both wearin jeans..we had our reception at shakeys, sm manila.. kumain lang kami then nagpapicture at pagkatapos umuwi sa bahay.

But our church wedding was really the opposite. Sobrang hirap ng preparation dahil sobrang rush. Nakailang away-bati din kami in discussing our wedding details. Andaming bagay na hindi kami magkasundo.. akala ko nga hindi na matutuloy yung kasal eh. Hindi ko pa alam kung paano ko paiikliin ang dami ng bisita ko dahil sobrang laki talaga ng pamilya ko plus andami ko pang friends.. sumasakit talaga ang ulo ni mister.

Andami pa naming kulang na requirements sa simbahan at ilang araw na lang hindi pa kami nakukumpilan, hindi pa namin napapasa yung questionaire sa San Agustin, hindi pa kami nakaka-attend ng seminar..at higit sa lahat wala pa kaming ID pictures. (This time mas masakit ang ulo ni Ate Beth!)

Ay naku talaga.. bumili lang ako ng shoes the day fore the wedding at si mister ganun din. Yung gown ko pina-adjust ko pa at nakuha ko lang din the day before the wedding. Lahat may barong na yung asawa ko wala pa. Pag inisip ko natatawa talaga ako kasi para lang kaming naglalaro pero nakakapagod.

December 23. Eto na ang Big day…this is it!

Hindi na ko mapakali sa bahay lalo na ng biglang dumilim ang langit... oh noh lahat kami nananalangin na wag naman sana umulan. ITLOG! At bigla namin naalala mag-alay ng itlog.. Nung umulan nag-ring ang phone sa bahay.. si mister.. "ma! nag-alay k ba ng itlog?!" Halatang mas tesnse si mister kesa sakin dahil bumagsak na ang ulan hanggang hapon. Mabuti na lang bago ang oras ng kasal nakisama naman ang langit..medyo umambon bago magstart ng ceremony pero nawala din naman pagkatapos. Siguro blessing lang samin ang ulan sa araw ng aming kasal.

Kinakabahan ako pero alam ko mas kinakabahan ang asawa ko. Pagbaba ko ng kotse.. naiiyak ako pero umurong yung luha ko nung natatapakan ko na yung ilalim ng gown ko.. anytime feeling ko madadapa ako..syet wag sana kasi nakakahiya talaga.. sabi sakin slow down..dahan-dahan pero wala eh.. maton talaga ako..at aaminin ko na nahirapan ako sa gown ko kasi sobrang haba hindi ko na kc pinabawasan. Nung nakita ko na si mister sa kanya na lang ako tumingin... and lahat ng worries ko nawala. I feel like im the most beautiful bride dahil sa pinakamamahal kong asawa na nag-aantay sakin sa altar. Nakita ko yung ngiti niya.. parang nangaasar na nakakaloko na parang anytime hihimatayin sa nerbyos.

Comedy lang nung kiss the bride.. pumalakpak ang asawa ko.. parang first time lang makakakiss.. palakpakan daw kami pero sya ata ang unang pumalakpak.. bakit nga ba mahal?

At ang sumunod ay ang walang katapusang pag-click ng camera.

Reception.

Ang pinapangarap kong reception sa garden ay natupad.. at maganda talaga lahat sa paningin ko.. kung pwede lang magpicture kami sa bawat sulok dun gagawin ko na kahit wala nang program basta magpicture lang kami ni mister. Heheh. Salamat sa Lina Vitan.. job well done talaga.

Yun nga lang hindi talaga kami nakakain dahil maya't maya nagpipicture kami. Wala sana akong pakelam sa picture eh kasi gusto ko talagang kumain.. kaya lang ang asawa ko..pinagalitan ako dahil kain daw ako ng kain nakikita ako sa Video. Sus eh ano naman nagugutom ako! heheh hindi daw kasi ako nakikinig sa mga nagmemessage..

Salamat mahal sa isang napakaespesyal na araw na binigay mo sakin.. I am really proud that you are my husband and I am your wife. Thank you for making me feel so special... Hindi ako magsasawa kahit na ilang beses ako magsabi ng “I DO”.. basta ikaw ang pakakasalan ko ng paulit-ulit… thank you for loving me. Mahal na mahal ka ni misis..

Here's our pic on our civil (secret) wedding: