end of ur rope

spell H-A-P-P-Y

there is no such word to express kung gaano kami kasaya. basta ang alam lang namin masaya kami na magkasama at hinaharap ang araw-araw na buhay.

nagigising kami na magkayakap at natutulog na magkayakap. sino ba makakapagsabi na dumaan na kami sa matinding bagyo - just few months back?! whenever i looked back.. hindi na ko nalulungkot or naiiyak. there are times na napapatanong ako - how come nakatayo pa rin ako ngayon? at magkasama pa rin kami?

"you just have to forget her..cuz you have to accept your relationship is too shallow..", that's what she told him before.. mabuti na lang din ako pinili nya. he could have chosen her.. pwede din nman talaga nya ko hindi pakasalan.. but i don't know.. maybe, we're meant to end up together talaga.

i am not happy na merong nasaktan at nalulungkot.. pero iniisip ko na lang na God has a plan for her and for us. hindi ko rin naman maexplain kung paano at bakit nangyari ang mga bagay na nangyari in the past..

isa lang ang alam ko.. natapos din ang bagyo. kung minsan pinag-uusapan pa rin namin ang mga nangyari pero wala ng sama ng loob. tanggap na namin pareho kung ano man ang mga nangyari sa past.. tinatawanan na lang namin. :)

trials are spices in life.. you've got to experience pain for you to live and hindi lang para malaman mo na nageexist ka sa mundo. ginagawa nitong pulido ang pagkatao mo nang di mo namamalayan..

masaya mabuhay.

masaya ang buhay ko.

- thank you Papa God. *_*

ansarap maging buntis! *_*

pag nakikita ko kung paano ako inaasikaso ng asawa ko napapangiti na lang ako. maliit pa lang ang tyan ko pero ayaw na nya ko kumilos sa bahay. wow! super sipag ni mister lately.. hindi napapagod.. ;)

sya ang :

nagluluto
naglalaba
nagsasampay
naglilinis ng bahay
naggogrocery
tagabili ng gusto ko
tagasalo ng bad trip at init ng ulo ko
at higit sa lahat..
nagtitimpla ng gatas ko!

Antukin na kasi ako ngayun, so everynight nagtitimpla na sya ng gatas at pag nakatulog ako di nya makakalimutang manggising para lang uminom ako ng gatas namin ni baby.

nakakatuwa.. bibihira ang katulad ng asawa ko. ;)

ANG SARAP MAGING BUNTIS!

erase.. mali pala yun..

ANG SARAP MAGING MISIS NG MISTER KO.. WALANG KAPANTAY! *_*

- salamat sa pag-aalaga. love ka nmin ni baby daddy allan.. mwuah!

yes! it's positive!

After hubby had this weird dream about "sisiw" last night (means having own baby,thanks to google), I decided to try checking first with a pregnancy kit.. I was praying talaga when i bought the kit sa pharmacy and while doing the test na sana eto na yun.. and yes it's POSITIVE! I went to the clinic this morning for a pregnancy test (blood test) and doctor confirmed - I'm pregnant!

Excited na kami.. we're having our first baby soon. ;)

I can't describe the feeling.. at yung mukha ni hubby kaninang umaga.

ANG SAYA! =)

- thank you Lord for your wonderful gift on our 1st year anniversary. hindi po namin pababayaan yung blessing ni binigay mo.

spell BITCH! laeterang over confident strikes again

"katulong in the making" - daw ang baby ko.

laitin mo n ko wag lang ang baby namin..

don't u forget that..ms. super gandang babae na di marunong tumingin sa salamin..

enough on this.. wala na ko balak na patulan ka.. ms. talunan.. go and find your man para hindi ka na maging ksp at super lungkot..galingan mo sa pagpapapansin sa mga crushmo..sana yung kinakarir mo single at walang gf or asawa.. wala k pa nman pinipili.. and pag nagkbf ka ulit.. ingatan mo ha at baka maagaw na naman ng mukhang chakang katulong.. so u won't end up bitter and desperate again.. antagal mo din akong inasar, sinaktan at nilait, but ive never been rude to you. alam mo yan.. ang haba ng pasensya ko sayu.. lagi akong nice pag nakikipagusap sayu and you're always rude to me.. never ka nakrinig ng masama sakin khit na anlaki ng kasalanan mo sakin. gusto mo iforward ko mga emails mo sa simbahan nyo? saying your pregnant and all.. antagal ko nanahimik sa lahat ng mga ginawa mo sakin.. and this time.. wag mo idadamay ang anak sa mga panlalait mo. bilib ako sa confidence mo my dear.. u feel so pretty? isa k lang malaking boobs! tignan mo mukha mo sa salamin.. mukha akong chakang katulong? eh ikaw? mukha kang pambutas ng donut! maayos ka lang sa sarili but you're not that good looking my dear..ang haba ng baba mo hindi mu ba alam?! eh ngayun ang taba mo pa lumapad pa yung mukha mo! ngayun lang naman nagimprove ang itsura mo..check ur old pics.. naguumapaw ang pagiging feeling mo.. over ka sa confidence. don't you dare to talk that way again about my child. hindi ka na nmin papakelaman.. at wala na kami pakelam sa card mo.. wow.. sarap gumimik noh? haha so you have money to spend? thanks to hsbc.

one year na kami..

happy anniv..

salamat sa baby bear.. lubshu! :)

YOU JUST HAVE TO GO FORWARD! :)

"You need to forget Jhen.."

I remember myself being drowned with so much pain. I felt like dying last year... I was so down and helpless. Wala akong ibang alam gawin kundi magtanong ng mga bagay na walang sagot.. or to ask questions kahit isinasampal na sakin yung sagot. I came to the point na gusto ko ng bumitaw dahil hindi ko na alam kung saan pa ko pupunta. Slowly, I became a monster.
But i decided to forgive and I tried to forget - that's the hardest part. I tried really hard to go on with my life and let go of all the bad memories. I don't want to be a monster.. I want to wake up everyday with peace of mind. I decided not to cry anymore. I chose to understand and look on the brighter side.

Now, I'm leaving everything behind as I am moving onward.. I'm taking one step at a time and I'm getting there.. I'm not completely healed.. not yet, but my husband and Papa God are helping me to continue what I have started.
I'm no longer trapped in the past and I'm lovin my life.. ;)

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"forget the things that make you sad.. remember the things that make you glad.."

life is beautiful!

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Masaya gumising sa umaga na merong isang tao na nakayakap sayo...at maglalambing ng walang humpay sa buong maghapon hanggang sa bago kayo matulog. At higit sa lahat masarap matulog nang may nakayakap sayo sa buong magdamag.
Wala na kong mahihiling pa. Ang pag-ibig natin ay sapat na.. :)
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My life is indeed colorful!

galaxies, unscathed

“and when we touch we’re not really touching. if our atoms did not repel one another we’d pass through each other like galaxies, unscathed.”

- I was walking around Berlin today and came across this piece of graffiti. It reads: “and when we touch we’re not really touching. if our atoms did not repel one another we’d pass through each other like galaxies, unscathed.” It’s a striking thought and I found myself thinking about the nature of love and connection for the rest of the day. How is it that we ever find anyone to fall in love with? Or they are able to find us? Does fate intervene ever?

lovely, right? a very nice quote to end my end. :)

sitehttp://colonycollapse.wordpress.com/2008/11/25/like-galaxies-unscathed/http://www.deathcabforcutie.com/blogs/posts/57/like_galaxies,_unscathed%E2%80%A6/

http://jenzkiedo.multiply.com/journal/item/150/galaxiesunscathed