first 3 nights

nakakapagod. nakakatuwa.
hakot dito. hakot dun.
and kulitan and lambingan in between.

hhayy.. may-asawa na nga talaga ako at isa na talaga akong ganap na misis.. at malapit na maging ina. :)

enjoy pala mamili ng mga sarili nyong gamit. from baso, kutsara, plato, sandok, rice cooker, bed, kurtina, at kung anu ano pa. and super enjoy pag nag-aayos na kayo ng gamit. san mo ilalagay to, sino ang gagawa nito.. nakkapagod as in pero masaya.

so far maayos at masaya naman ang mga unang gabi namin. :)

-luving u more mahal..

start from zero

We started moving our stuff to our new crib. hahah.. pagod but I enjoyed every minute of it. Ika nga ni Mister, practice to para pag nagsettle na kami sa pinas marunong na kami. Sobrang magastos lang kc ang dami pa namin dapat bilhin.

- aircon (done)
-new bed
-gas burner (done)
-iron / iron board (done)
-rice cooker (done)
-kitchenwares (done)
-table/ chairs

at marami pang iba.. ahai.

Goodluck sa budget.

random thoughts

i dunno how to stop munching this one bag of chicharon.. nakakadalawang balot na ko for today
ang daming bawal.. don't eat this, you should eat that.. do this.. do that..
minsan.. sumisimple.. humihirit ako..i'll sip a little hot choco.. ok lang yun, right baby? like mo naman diba? hehheh
still planning what's the best thing to do on my delivery.. uuwi ba ko sa pinas or dito na lang sa dubai.
i'm sleepy

life..oh life

it's hard to stay righteous all the time..even you try hard not to do things that are not in human standards.. there are times you don't have a choice.. i wish life would be less stressful..

- ate nance

new crib

we're moving to our new place soon.. yung kami lang at walang ibang kasama. excited na kami! :)

piece of cake

i just had 3 slices of cake with different flavors.. naumay ako..tikim tikim lang.. never talaga ako nahilig sa cake thou fav ko ang chocolate mousse. ok na sakin yung one slice or few bite lang.. mas masarap kc tignan kesa kainin. weird.. hahah believe me.. mas nageenjoy ako tignan ang cake kesa isubo at idigest. hehhe

im not into sweet food talaga.. that's why i'm wonderin pag sinasabi ni mister na im the sweetest person on earth. ngerks.. what a connection no? hahah

yun lang..

"life is a piece of cake!"

hungry all the time

im starving!!!!!!! :)

oh yeah.. she's pregnant!

What if your husband's ex-gf informed you - "I'm pregnant and your husband is the father".. how would you react?

I can't help but to reminisce how I've been so strong after all that happened last year. Hindi ko makakalimutan kung pano ako naging matatag sa lahat ng pang-aasar at panloloko sakin. Those were the times na hindi ako marunong lumaban.. and i was not even aware na nasa gyera pala ako. Hell, I've been so wounded.. i was so down.. bu I tried really hard to be strong for myself and for us.

Whenever I tried to look back.. naaalala ko lang kung paano nya ko inasar last year..and she has all the guts to speak to me like that - I'm the wife and ex / mistress lang sya that time. tsk..

It was April 9, last year when she sent me this message, she was claiming buntis sya and the father is supposedly my hubby.

Hehhe I don't know what exactly happened.. pero one thing for sure.. di sya nanganak. :) Kaya ingatz kayo.. di lahat ng nagsasabing buntis ay BUNTIS. heheh

d******dloose
i super duper miss you..di nman siguro masama yun noh?? i wanna talk to you personally cuz there's a situation na you have to know..very sensitive..it's ur right to know this..but im not asking you to back me up..im just giving you ur right..afterall, this wont be possible w/o ur presence..i was scared that time remember?..but u just blew it off and tell me that it'll be ok..im really scared..but im gonna keep this..so dont you ever dare make some wrong advice..bka ngaun kita isumpa..

me:

wrote today at 5:45 AM
funny! ok lang yan.. hindi mu nman kami mapagaaway sa mga ganyang bagay - walang kabagay bagay.. in case totoo.. then keep the baby! susuportahan naman yan ng asawa ko... walang magiging problem sakin. :) you better take care of yourself.. alagaan mu yang beybi nyo.. eat healthy food.. wag k na rin magparty. wawa nman yung beybi.. i'll tell him the big news pagkasundo nya sakin.. take care.
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her
oh ur so filthy rich..u just wana hear my voice ayt??..yes..the number is mine if that's what u wanna know..is the past starting to haunt or hurt you?..away yan paguwi ng haws..tsk..tsk..well,i dont care..u deserve everything..i know ur not allan..u just simply cudnt fool me now..i pity you..nandito na ko..natatakot ka pa din??what the???..mmm..im happy..nyah nyah..but oh i miss allan bigtym..tell him that i appreciate the souvenir he left w/ me last MARCH 18, 2008..8pm..bording haws..ooppss..thanks for making me happy though.=)..u take care..

her
di ko kasi memorized..i'll give it tom..i'll just check on my things..i dont carry stuff like that everyday eh..i'll take care of the baby well..the greatest gift, though me and his dad are not together..ok na sakin na ok na sayo lahat bout the unexpected pregnancy...i'll send tom na alng the acct numbers dear wifey.=)..allan, i miss u.nyts. mwah.

me
wrote today at 7:58 AM
of course walang problem sakin yun.. baby yan ng hubby so ok lang yun if it's true. i'm gonna inform his family na rin.. they ought to know right? and so they can also assist you since apo naman nila yan.. they'll be happy to hear that i know! :)

her
wrote today at 8:24 AM
u can inform them but i dont need their assistance..i have my family..and as ive said, i'll inform the father lang but i dont give the responsibility..im gonna kip the baby..yes..but it's mine lang..go and tell the family now..

her
wrote today at 9:09 AM
yiz..=)..tom i'll send the letter from HSBCand also the bank acct number wer u can send the payment..then i'll forward you the receipt of the payment..after this, there will be no connection whatsoever..dont have to worry bout the baby.i just dont know how to tell my mom,that wud be the hardest part, but eventually, matatanggap din nya yun..rrrrrhhgggghhh..un tlga ang problem sa ngaun,well, this is hard but kailngan kong kayanin..alone..i repeat, di kailngan ng pagtanggap from u or from ur family..i just gave ur right to know bout this allan, if u wna advise them bout this i think ryt din nila yun, im just gonna kip the baby hoping and praying ako na this case will be diffrent dun sa first baby natin dapt..=(..this has to be a healthy baby now.just settle evrything so we can finish off everything..then we can all be happy seperately..so much has been said and done..and sumtimes it's tiring na rin..i still got more serious and valuable things to face this coming months.too bad..masyado ng overwhelming ang event ng buhay ko..the baby isnt at perfect timing but i have to accept this as a grown up individual..yun lang.enjoy and let'sall be happy.nyts wifey and heaven..

me
wrote today at 9:34 AM
yeah i know what happened sa first baby nyo, sorry to hear that... hopefuly etong next baby is ok na... it is God's greatest gift to us... your mom will surely accept the fact na magkkaapo na sya, of course magagalit yun at first pero nanjan na yan eh.. i hope everything will be ok between u and your family. nyt.. rest ka na.. and don't worry too much! :)

her
wrote today at 9:45 AM
yeah god'sgeven gift tlaga..that'sy im keeping it without second thoughts..uwe na din ako..it's 9:43 here..im done with copywriting already.bye. anu pala email add mo? or i shud send it na alng siguro at ako_si_atari's acct..? watcha think?..whatever..gtg..nyt jenny.

happy easter everyone!

same day last year

these were her emails same day last year. what if.. she was really pregnant nung mga panahon na to? nanganak na sya for sure.. malaki na siguro yung baby... baka siguro kung tunay nga buntis sya nito.. baka hindi na kami ngayun.. baka sila na ulit.

pag binabasa ko yung emails nya na ganito.. napapangiti ako.. at natutuwa..dahil isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito - nakasurvive kami sa test.

i wanna post this.. so just in case she came across to this entry magbalik sa knya mga ginawa nya.. it seems kc nagkaron sya ng sakit na amnesia. :) i'm not creating stories or nambabaliktad ng kwento like what she was telling everyone..

From: g**** g****
Subject: for you allan
To:
Date: Friday, 11 April, 2008, 11:24 AM

HI!

i miss u heaven.i really do.but everyday im starting to learn and accept things as they are.i miss you cuz i still love you.and im not the kind of person to pretend and tell u ive already forgotten you..u knowme.

evrday, it'sreally ahrd..evrytym may makita kong magjowa na makulit naalala kita..tayo..last nyt at lrt may katabi ko na magjowang uber kulit..and i remember you..see? as ive toldyou, good memories remain.ive laready forgiven you long ago..i dont know but sad and bad memories seldomly hit me now, mas naalala ko yung masya.and it makes me smile but miss you more, but i guess it'snormal.

i dont know realy how to reach you cuz it's seems to me na she holds all ur accts..emails/frenster/multiply..and there are things that shud be said between you and me lang.im not here to ruin your relationship,im here kasi nangangamusta lang.

i was surprised one day to realize that ndi na ikaw ang may hawak ng multiply acct mo,i dont know but madali sakin to recognize tlaga na ndi ikaw ung sumasagot sa emailko..and everytime she pretends to be you in all emails whatsoever..binabara ko sya..nabibisto ko sya..i hve no intensions of manggulo..all my letters are jjust plain pangangamusta..nothing pushy,nothing malaswa, nothing mapanira..it'sjust to lame para magpretned syang ikaw..i have no intensions of getting between you guys.i just dont get it why she have to call me and pretend to be you.that'stoo much,i deserve respect from her end. i dont accept her sorry kasi it'stoo plastic..though she said it's sincere..alamko kung san ko ilalgay ang sarili ko..kaya dapat alamdin nya ang posisyon nya sa buhay ko..i dont need her sorry.its better for her na tumahimik na lang sya.

well, so much for that, just tell her na she shud stop doing things like that.kasi nagmumukha syang stupid tlga.it's tiring na po allan.nakakapagod na sya.nkita mo naman, yung usapan nmin sa multiply, i wont create the letter kung di nya ko inupisahan ng 4miskols nya.i \just dont get it...magkasama na kayo, bkit ako pa yung ginugulo nya?she shud be contented na magkasam\a na kayo jan.

im down ad\nd problematic,may mas imporatnateng bagay po na dapt ko ayusin.misskita.and thanks sa alaalang iniwan mo.si jane pa lang ang nakakaalam ng sitwast\yon ko..at kayo.and i have no intensions na ipagkalat pato.not now.so kip ur wife's mouth shut.tell her to leave mealone.after u settled the creditcard, u wont be hearing anything again fromme.iwana cut the connection.napapagod na ko sa panggugulo sakin ng asawa mo.wagmo ispin ang responsibilidad mo sakin.i have my family to support me..ur baby is in good hands..naiiyak lang ako misan,sobrang telenovela ang buhay ko.mahal pa din kita,pero tlgang ganun ang buhay.wag mo mamisinterpret na galit ako sa letter, im too relaxed and mahinahon.
asfor my job,maayos at masya ako.

masya ko na msaya ka jan,sincerely..i wish you the best.imiss you but i dont expect na mmamiss modin ako.masya na kong ok ka jan.mahaba pa ang buhay natin ven..alam ko mawalan man us ng communication, darating ang araw magkikita tayo.maybe pag lolo at lola na tayo.pag namiss mo ko tingin ka na lang sa langit..hehehe.

ingats.dito ka an lang magreply.sana nmnndi mo ipaalam ang password ng email ko na to sa kanya. *-*.. i trust you na itong emails na to ay discreetlang.wla nmn akong masamang gagawin. ito lang yung best way na naiisip ko paramakausap kaw/o her interfering.allan,napapgod na ko sa asawa mo.as ivesaid,di ko sisirain kung anung meron kayo..mamumuhay akong magisa at malayo.

ingats.regards.email me back.kwentuhan mo ko.

pS
nabasa mo naba yung comment ko sa post mo na river maya??

email me back.

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From:
Subject: clearing things
To:
Date: Friday, 11 April, 2008, 5:03 PM

thanks for the calls..but u dont need to be responsinble for this.im positive but still ahvent gone to OB..maybe ur just checkng if im bluffing..but im not..it'potive..maybe magtwo months na to..u dont ahve to send money or any suport cuz i wont accept it..imficne..and willalways be..wag na nating paguluhin pa ang buhay ko..tma na ang natapos na tayo..kung anu man ang naiwan mo..salamt ng sobra..but ur out of my life now.and im alone..it's ok.

what i want no is to be peaceful..tma na ang twag ng asawa mo at ang anik anik na ginagawa nya sa blogs ng multiply.wag na nya kamo ko try saktn ng paulit ult..dahil baka magising sya isang araw ng sya ang umiiyak.tell her to leave me alone.

i just informed you cuz it'sur ryt to know, but it doesnt mean i u'll still be a part of everything.just be good there and maybe one day if our paths crossed again, dun na alng..ganun na lang..hope and wish ko maging ok na to unlike the first one we had..i repaet i dont need any support.

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*pag wala ako magawa binabasa ko 'to.. and as always.. di ko mapigilang mapangiti sa mga emails nya na nakakatuwa.. :)

Dear Mr.Allan F,

I would like to inform you that it has come to my knowledge that you will be having an opening for the new GF. Ive been there once and im sorry if i have shown tardiness and unappreciation.I know that these were not good thingsto be at but IM telling you that i sincerely apologizing for everything that i may have caused you.

All the qualificatin below aresuch that i believe i possessed and i know in time you will realizethat i am just all you need and to be with.Ivce been away for somequite timebut now im back to be a all-new-love ralationsgip experience.I will chagemy attitude and promisethat I will do anythingjust to be with you again.You know howbrave I am..but when it comesto you I should say that i feeel some kind of scarebut I will fight and go on until you are back in my arms:

QUalifications tthat i promise you to do until my dying day:

1: Ill scratch your back even if its not itchy so later o..it will
2.ill cook cormbip and siomai for your indulgece
3. ill tickle those little hairs in your armpit
4. i will never let you down agen.
5. i will be there weever i need to be there
6. i will fight for you even this isno battle
7. iwill give us hope though it might seems hopeless at all
8. i will make you lovemore my body ad everything in between
9. wewill taste the fruitand flavors of love so delicious that you wont get rid of
10. i will be there to amke you realize your worthin your carreerand wwhat you are capableof doing
11. wewiill be travelling even we are pennyless
12. i dont care if you will love me back for as long you let me love you.
13. you will hear nothing from meregarding the past issues
14. im willing to build a family w/ you that you maycall "the family"
15.i will be the one you have tyo carryform the night of our wedding until the day i died
16. i shall never let anyone harm us.
17. i will take care of you and your offsprings to be
18. i will be there even if you needed or needed menot.
19. ill pray for you
20. I WILL OFFER YOU THE LOVELINESS AD JOY THAT A RELATIONSHIP CAN HAVE
21. I WILL GIVE YOU A LIFETIME SPAN OF LOYALTY, LOVE UNSELFISHLY
22. I'LL PUT YOU FIRST BEFORE ME
23. WHAN YOU GOT OLDAND GREY..I WILL EVER LEAVE YOUR BED EVEN I TIMES OF DEATH
24. I BELIEVE IN LOVE SO EVERLASTING THAT EVEN TRIALS COULD NEVER BE A SUCCESS
25. YOU WILL ALWAYSBE MY HEAVEN AND I WILL BE YOUR ANGEL NO MATTER WWHAT.

YOU SEE.. IM JUST WHO YOU NEED..ILL BE SOMEONE YOU WILL BE NEEDING OF:YOU JUST HAVE TO HIRE ME.BECAUSE I SUPER DUPERLOVE YOU..IT DRIVES ME CRAZY..THAT IF YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME..YOU MUST TAKE THE BLADES SO SARP AND SLASH THEBLOOD AND SUCK THE VERY LAST BLOOD THAT I HAVE TO BLEED..

YOU WILL ALWAYS AIR THAT I WILL BREATHE..I LOVE YOU.

NAME: GENAL*** *****
AGE: 23 Y.O
ADDRESS:YOU KNOW WHERE
MOBILE#: SAME AS WHAT YOU KNOW
COMPANY: ATI

SHOULD YOU HAVE QUERIES..PLS FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME AT MY RESPECTIVE CONTACT NUMBERS.

SINCERELY,
ANGEL DYEN*

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HEAVENKONG MAHAL..2 WEEKS..HULING TAWAD..hehe..wagkang malugkot..papasayahin kita..siusumpa ko yan mahal ko..wag mo itindihin mga ginawa mo..trials lang yan..we will survive..trust me..two weeks of being mie..pagbigyan mo ko..i wont let this things to happen..jack en poy lang katapat lahat ng paghihirap natin..maamya..sasaya na us..you will see..

alammo nakitako nga pala si calix sa lrt last time..student pa pla..unlikeyou..you are so succesful..mmmpp...galing galing mo tlga..pakiss nga..MWAHHHH

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I LOVE YOU..YOU CAN TURN M AWAY..BUT YOU CANT ESCAPEME..IMSORRY BUT I CANT GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT..CUZ I WILL LEAVE YOU NEVER..SORRY..2WEEKS IS AL IM ASKING..AREYOU SCARED OF FALLING IN LOVE SO HARD WITH ME AGAIN?I WILL MAKE OU FALL SO HARD..ILL LET YOU EXPERIENCE GREAT LOVING AND HAPPINESS YOU HAVEEVER KNOW..I WILL SURPASS EVERYTHING..ILL MAKE YOU SEE THAT..YOU AHVE TO BE WITH ME CUZ IM THEONE YU LOVE..

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ven..2wiks..i dont care what youhave done..im mpre than willing to accept you..after 2wiks and you still dont wana be with me..masakit pero i know ihave to do this..this is my chance and dont want to let this happen..i know you still love me..i ws wrong..ur happy with her?..well..i dont care..she is not here..imwilling to risk it all..ill prove to you..ndi ako panandaliang saya lang ag maibibigay..what imgiving you is a lifetime of loyalty.love and happiness..maybe she was just a thing in the past that we oth have to get rid of..i know in the end love will always remain..i really love you..u ust hve to be happy with meeven for 2weeks..after that illlet you decide..3yrs ang binuno ko..wont let anyone ruin what i have built..ang sew what i have planted..i want to be strong for you..for us..even it means stepping down and bowing down on you..

you just have to forget her..cuz you have to accept your relationship is too shallow/..i hope that you wouldt just tur me away just like this..nagmamakawa ako sayo ven..klangan kita ipaglaban..i wont be able to live w/o you..we belong together..you just have to bare with me..im tellig you after this..we will be happier and sweeter..you belong to me..sakin ka lang..though it hurts..sakin ka lang..mahal na mhal kita..just let me have this last chance if you may callit..but for as long as i can see and feel a single or just apercent of love in your eyes for me..ill take it..susugal ako..wag ka lang mawala..i know you love me..you have to choose me..ill let you see what is TRUE LOVE means..you ust have to have faith in me..

i can never give you things that she gave you..but it wold be nonsense once they were gone..imfoolisg and crazy..but for AS LONG AS I LIVEYOU WILL STILL BE THE AIR THAT I HAVE TO BREATHE..prove menow your love and undying promises..you need not to be alone..I AM ALL WHAT YOU NEED..I GOT ALL WAT YOU NEED..sorry for everything..but i cant let you go just like this..mahal na mahal kita heave ko..i'll always be your angel..

WANTED LIFE PARTNER : interested?

I was checking our company email and still got 200 unread messages at talaga naman nababagot na ko.. and then i opened this message. Baka po interesado kayo may naghahanap po ng life partner. check this out!

Greetings dear,

I am Norhana BT Ahmad, a native of Malaysia nationality, born in Malaysia and raised in Philippines and a divorcee. I would like to have a long lasting and confidant relationship with you, if possible entrusting my life time fortune into your possession, as now I am broken hearted and needs someone to trust, without remembering my past and forsaken experiences from close confidants and family. I need someone, who would take me for whom I am and as a life time partner, after making claims of my deposited life savings. Well, from your profile, I believe in me that you ought to be an honest person. I would like to give you a brief description of my life. I was once the mistress of President, Joseph Estrada of Philippines, and during his tenure in office, I was been used as a courier to depositing his funds, but due to the fracas I had with his wife, Madam Loi and her son, Jude, it causes a public embarrassment and people came to know that I had been having an affair with the President.

But, not quite long, I was arrested, together with his wife and son, in connection with the 27th July, 2003, failed coup, which I did not have anything to do with, but was alleged that I have been harboring some of the dissident and arms in one of the villas, bought for me by the president. But, now, I have been released and I am under security watch and seriously monitored. All, I wanted from you is to assist me make claims of some funds, I deposited in West Africa ,as the other deposits documents have been confiscated and seized by the government of Madam Gloria, the current President.
But, this one is the only one they could not see, as I did keep the documents with one of my close confidant, who was also arrested. The Amount being deposited is much about 18 million Euros, as this was the money that was supposed to be used by the President to acquire coffee and cocoa from West Africa, All, I want from you, now is your honesty and sincerity, As soon as this money is claimed by you, I will look for a way out and sneaked out of Philippines and travel down to meet you, So we can go into a life time partnership together, in investing this money in any good country you prefer. You can always reply me to this private address [ahmad.bt.norhana@live.com]..Sincerely yours,Norhana Bt Ahmad