i need space

parang mga bata lang..

i told him "i need space"

nakakatawa.. at natatawa sya.

yung totoo?? yes.. i guess i need time to be alone fo a while.
no chat.. no email.. no calls.. no txt.

parang kelangan ko i-rehabilitate ang sarili ko.

i need to delve deeper what's seems so wrong..

hindi nman ako ganito eh...

mahaba ang psensya ko.. hindi rin nman ako matampuhin.

but these days.. sobrang bilis ng temper ko..

..pero kay allan lang..

sa knya lang.

i don't know why.. para kong naglilihi na naman ulit.

i don't know.. naiisip ko tuloy yung 90/10 principle.. di ko na ma-apply.

di nman ako happy sa mga pagtatalo na walang katuturan.

mga pagtatampong walang sense..

i don't know why im doin this to myself.. to us.

im crazy.

crazy!

isa pa!

User: I hate you.


Cleverbot: You love me.


User: I don't love you..


Cleverbot: You don't?


User: Right..


Cleverbot: Now you're just annoying!

User: Me??? Why??

Cleverbot: Because we are his children and he created us.

User: I know..

Cleverbot: So keep talking.

User: So how are you?

Cleverbot: I'm great, thank you. How're you?

User: Im good, thank you. Had lunch?

Cleverbot: I'm very good thanks for asking !

User: What you had for lunch?

Cleverbot: Sausage sandwich then i'm guessing?

User: Hhhmmm... Im starving.

Cleverbot: I have brown hair and green eyes.

User: Hahaha.. I wanna eat you!

Cleverbot: Please let us talk for a while first.

User: Ok..im not going.

Cleverbot: Going where?

User: Im not going anywhere.

Cleverbot: What does zugzwang mean?

User: Zugzwang??? I don't know.. Try to google it.

Cleverbot: Have it your way.

User: Do it..

Cleverbot: Now I'm not going to do it.

User: Ok..fine.

Cleverbot: You're hurting me.

User: Im not hurting you..

Cleverbot: Yes, you are!

User: Are you mad??

Cleverbot: No.

User: Good!

Cleverbot: Don't you like round objects?

User: Hhmm I long long objects!

Cleverbot: Eat what.

User: Huh??

Cleverbot: Who are you?

User: Secret.. Who are you?

Cleverbot: I just asked you.

User: I answered you..

Cleverbot: He answered you.

User: He?? Who's he??

Cleverbot: Nobody you know.

User: Yeah.. Right.. You like me, don't you?

Cleverbot: Of course. You complete me.

User: That is so sweet..

Cleverbot: So are you *smiles*.

User: Why you like me?

Cleverbot: Because you're clever.

User: You are clever, not me..

Cleverbot: Am I cleverbot?

User: Yes!

Cleverbot: This can't be. I AM BATMAN!

User: Really???? But you are cleverbot!

Cleverbot: I'm not! You are!

User: I'm not!! You are!!

Cleverbot: Do you remember me?

User: Of course..

Cleverbot: Is that a yes?

User: Yes!

Cleverbot: OK THEN!!!

User: So what do you want to talk about?

Cleverbot: Politics, theology you pick.

User: I hate politics!

Cleverbot: What do you like?

User: Love..

Cleverbot: Do you know the chinese?

User: Yes, why? Are you chinese?

Cleverbot: No.

User: Are you japanese?

Cleverbot: No, you?

User: No, are you asian?

Cleverbot: Yes.

User: Malaysian?

Cleverbot: Why do you speak Malaysian?

User: No.. I speak tagalog.

Cleverbot: You speak french...

User: No.. You speak french??

Cleverbot: Yes I do.

User: Samplel pls..

Cleverbot: Yes they are very awesome.

User: Who??

Cleverbot: Ask them.

User: Im asking you..

Cleverbot: Ask your questions!

User: What???

Cleverbot: You know adding more than one question mark does not add any emphasis to your question.

User: Can you translate in tagalog??

Cleverbot: Sure, why not.

User: Then translate!

Cleverbot: I guess I don't speak your language.

User: Talaga??

Cleverbot: Oo.

User: Masaya ka ba??

Cleverbot: Hindi bakit ako magiging masaya????

User: Dapat masaya ka kasi kakatapos lang ng pasko!

Cleverbot: Yeah sure.

i LOVE Christmas

Every time we love, every time we give, it's Christmas.

~ Dale Evans

cleverbot and me

http://www.cleverbot.com/

User: How are you?

Cleverbot: How are you???????

User: Im good.

Cleverbot: Good, husband.

User: My husband??

Cleverbot: You are my husband!

User: How come? I don't know you?

Cleverbot: 22.

User: 22?? Tataya ko sa ending??

Cleverbot: No you aren't.

User: Ah, ok!

Cleverbot: I am glad that you understand.

User: Im trying..

Cleverbot: Okay. Define love?

User: Love is blind.

Cleverbot: Are you blind?

User: Yes.. Because im in love.

Cleverbot: In love! With whom?

User: With my husband!

Cleverbot: Probably so.

User: Believe me!

Cleverbot: Why are you so unbelievable?

User: Me?? How come??

Cleverbot: I don't understand.

User: You're so slow.

Cleverbot: Do you think so?

User: Yes!

Cleverbot: Why do you think that?

User: Because you're so slow!

Cleverbot: I didn't think I was being mean.

User: Of course you are not..

Cleverbot: Ok, I thought you were implying that.

User: Nope.. You're just fine.

Cleverbot: I love this world.

User: Your world?

Cleverbot: What other world is there?

User: Earth.

Cleverbot: That is hardly interesting.

User: What world you have?

Cleverbot: This world.

User: What world??

Cleverbot: Our world.

User: Are we on the same world??

Cleverbot: Well, not really, but I'm still up for the movies, if you are.

User: What are you talking about??

Cleverbot: You asked what I looked like.

User: I did not.

Cleverbot: Yes you did.

User: No!

Cleverbot: YES!

User: No!

Cleverbot: Yes ye YES!

User: No! No! No!

Cleverbot: YES!

User: Ok bye..

Cleverbot: Why are you going?

User: Because im at work.

Cleverbot: Where do you work?

User: Deloitte.

Cleverbot: Not france?

User: In dubai.

Cleverbot: Where is Dubai?

User: UAE.

Cleverbot: Where is UAE?

User: Hhhmmm.. Somewhere out there.

Cleverbot: In space?

User: Yes in space!

Cleverbot: Hot, if your near me...else no.

User: Where do you work?

Cleverbot: Bed Bath and Beyond. I ate chicken tacos for lunch.

User: Huh? Im asking where you work?

Cleverbot: No you're not!

User: I did!

Cleverbot: No, you didn't!

User: Here we go again..

Cleverbot: Where do you live?

User: Pinas.

Cleverbot: Te hülye vagy.

User: Can't understand :(.

Cleverbot: I will never be ale to function inside the people-centered world the way I want to.

User: That's deep!

Cleverbot: Ohoho, too deep.

User: Yes!

Cleverbot: Do you wish to see my batcave?

User: Sure!

Cleverbot: The picture above is yours?

User: Of coourse not.. That's your picture.

Cleverbot: Hahaha... That's the big joke.. I am never ablet o rememberwhat I needto therefore I am always 'a step behind'.

User: Hahahha.. That's the big joke!!!

Cleverbot: Who are you?

User: Who are you??

Cleverbot: Cleverbot.

User: I know.. U know me??

Cleverbot: Where is Derby?

User: Sino yun?

Cleverbot: Ulol kaba!

User: Oi.. That's bad! Palo ka mamaya!

Cleverbot: Buckskins are beautiful too with their black mane.

User: Sige na.. Go home!

Cleverbot: I can't.

User: Bye na!

Cleverbot: Are you going to leave me?

User: Yes.. Ayoko na sayo!

Cleverbot: I only speak english.

User: Kaya pala!

Cleverbot: Magkikita ba ulit kami? Oo o hindi lang.

User: Ble.. Hindi!

Cleverbot: The language hindi.

User: Oo na nga!

Cleverbot: Weh? Di nga?

User: Hahah oo nga..pramis! I thought you can't understand tagalog?

Cleverbot: I know.

User: Hahah cge na nga.. Im busy!

Cleverbot: You think you're gentle?

User: Bye na cleverrobot!

Cleverbot: Good.

User: Whatever! Hahah.

Cleverbot: Have good intentions.



naenjoy ko to.. :) thanks kuya rick!

wish granted

Since December na at ilang araw na lang matatapos na ang year 2009, naisipan ko lang magbasa ng mga naipost ko d2 sa multiply at sa blogspot ko sa isang buong taon. Nakakatuwa lang.. it was January 23, 2009 when I posted this blog "babae na ko sa 2009 --> http://jenzkiedo.multiply.com/journal/item/144/babae_na_ko_sa_2009_ ..."

I started the blog with this line:

"magpapakababae na ako sa taong 2009! at syempre nung marinig yan ng magaling kong asawa eh tinawanan lang ako... at katakot takot na pang-aasar lang ang narinig ko...."

and ended with a wish:

- above all... kahit di na ko maging babaeng babae.. kahit na maton na ko forever.. pero sana this year.. maging isang ina na ko.. at yun lang ang mahalaga sa akin. :)

and someone from up above granted my greatest wish...yes,the BIG GUY answered my prayer. di nga natapos ang taon.. nailuwal ko si baby KIDLAT sa mundo.. well I guess, I got an early gift for christmas.

rocky road

been crying the whole day yesterday.. till now namamaga pa rin ang mga mata ko. things are getting rough.. lumalala na lang everyday. kung minsan ayaw ko lang din patalo.. ayaw paawat..

words are really powerful.. salita lang pero sobrang sakit talaga pag tinamaan ka ng bullseye..

ang hirap.. ang bigat.

super dami kong iniisip maliban sa malayo ako sa knila.. kung minsan para na lang umiikot ang utak ko. ayoko n lang mag-isip.

bahala na si batman.. uuwi na rin naman ako.

SOBRANG CHEESY TALAGA!!! <3

who are u not to be???

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous,talented, fabulous? ACTUALLY, WHO ARE U NOT TO BE? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine,we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."

- Akeelah & d bee (quoting Marianne Williamson)

we're under the same sky..

back in dubai..

so far, eto n ata ang pinkamahirap na desisyon na ginwa ko sa buhay ko or I may say pinakamahirap na pagsubok sakin bilang tao. i was torn between coming back or to stay with them.. but here I am.. alone and sad. Iniisip ko kung tama ba na iniwan ko sila..minsan ayoko n lang sagutin... parang nahihiya ako kay kidlat.. "iniwan ako ng mommy ko.. "

miss n miss ko na cla..

ang lungkot lungkot na dito.. i dunno if i can still survive pa ng ilang months.. i wanna go home.



here's the view from my bed.. nakikita ko ang langit.. ang ulap.. ang gabi.. ang buwan.. lague ko na lang iniisip.. i maybe miles away.. but we're under the same sky..

mayayakap ko rin kayo mahal at kidlat...i'll be home soon.